Yes, this is nothing.

I know I should be studying, but I guess when your brain is being incapable of absorbing anything other than a self-enacted impulse to sleep into the night; perhaps it’s time for a little diversion.

To be completely honest, it’s not like I’ve been so busy that I could barely take time to a do a little blogging, but I guess under the urgency of the exams I can’t bring myself to spend a good few hours typing. It’s like a bus ram into my conscience; I’ll end up reminding myself that I should be revising instead of uploading crappy posts online.

But tonight is an exception. I guess I earned this little session here today.

Exam week is as crappy as it always is (and I believe always will be), and it’s the same routine of reading in utter relaxation until the horror of it all strikes 3 minutes before the paper. Then I go berserk muttering profanity while trying to cram whatever I could scavenge from my notes (and forget them subsequently). Then I sit for the paper and weep silently as I watch my CGPA crumble away into bitter grains of agony and regret, and flare up a next resolution to my innate procrastination.

And I know you should’ve guessed that those resolutions end up cast into a mental rubbish bin and incinerated at dawn break.

Well, two more papers to go; one tomorrow and another on Saturday. After that is a month’s worth of doing absolutely nothing perpendicular to self-improvement (save the few occasions of attempting to finish up a planned story… that’s self-improvement, right?).

I guess I can be satisfied with my Constitutional Frameworks and Politics paper… I answered smoothly, but there was that nagging feeling that I could’ve done way better (if I had studied). A pass is imminent, perhaps, but it should border between a C or a B. My BM is alright, and English for Mass Comm… I hope I got the formats right. And for some sick reason I was actually enjoying my discussion/opinion essay. I’m not saying that I did well (goodness sakes, I’ll be happy if I get to pass with that sort of essay), but it has been a while since I was actually enjoying my exam questions since those fiction/story essays you get to write at middle-school. Funny, though. I rarely find enjoyment in opinion essays.

But my Civilization paper… ugh, I practically spelt my first fail of my entire year of studying. Perhaps I should go plant a few joss sticks at the altar…

Tomorrow, journalism paper. Which I’m freaking out at. The fact that I’m in a Journalism major is piling eventual but totally unnecessary pressure into doing well in this paper. I mean, what would my mother say?

Mom: *gasps* OMG Jee-boy, you got a C for your journalism paper? WTF HLYSH*T (insert random Hokkien profanity)!!!!!!

Me: Yeah… well, can I have a break? I mean, I’m in a love predicament, and dad’s being an ass about his aquariums and stuff and I was in a non-drug-related ethereal state that affected my ability to write. Plus my clothes had been smelly. And it’s YOUR softener’s fault!

… Nope, not a good excuse…

Ah dang, I’ll worry about it tomorrow. Time I get some sleep.

Goodnight folks.

Word of the day:

erudite
Characterized by extensive reading or knowledge; learned.

Song of the day: The ending Dragonball theme song! (Romantic kura-reru no.., Romantic kura-reru no…)

Anime of the day: Higurashi no Naku Koro Ni (When the Cicadas cry).
Note: Creepiest Anime EVER.

Currently reading: Plethora of notes, notes, text books and notes. Plus the random newspaper comics. And blogs.