Le Random.

What am I doing here? I should be sleeping, I mean, I have to wake at 5 tomorrow in the morning and drag myself to college and if I have any sense of learning through my past mistakes of sleeping-late-&-waking-horrendously-early-for-crappy-day, I should really be lunging myself to bed right now with sleeping pills as a last resort in case insomnia kicks in.

Alright, my bad, I should’ve done this earlier and not sit myself in front of the old TV playing Winning Eleven 8 (or PESoccer 5). If you’re asking why I should even bother doing this and just go sleep instead, well, this blog is made under the request of mon very fascinating (in a weird sense, but fascinating nonetheless), enthusiastic and (with all due and ultimate respect) adorably lame coursemate Pei Ling. She popped to me on MSN and requested this on her first words coupled with emoticons and a *dances*, so if I refuse to do it I’ll be

1) An AssHOLE and

2) (Since I’m an asshole anyways and the previous doesn’t apply) going to sleep ignoring the fact that a pretty friend took time and care to ask me to blog and keep this hellhole of a site alive, and ridden with the painful haunts of guilt.

But to be real honest:

3) Going to sleep achieving nothing for the day, and if answering to a friend’s request to blog is in a way doing something WORTHWHILE for the day, well, I GOTTA do it.

So here I am, sacrificing sleep and rest so that I can post something that’s probably not worth anyone’s attention, so that I can comfort my conscience with a pretence that I did something that in a way is achieving something.

*cue HALLELUJAH song here*

Naw, just kidding (kinda). I wanted to take time to blog anyhow, so in a way it’s a win-win situation. Screw sleep and tomorrow. Nothing a good plate of Chee Cheong Fun (all chilli) can’t cure.

hanks Pei Ling =). Appreciate the request *bows*

Well, I’ve practically planned nothing for this post so it’s pretty much random stuff (which Ling says I should do when I’m out off things to blog).

Not that I plan for any of my posts anyways.

The weekend has been a lazy and carefree one, and I had a 4 day break from college (the first 2 days are self-declared ‘break-days’). Things had been pretty busy and hectic before, and I guess my biological clock and schedule kind of tuned itself to ‘slow and lazy’. For the past days all I’ve been doing are:

1) Glutton away (shit).

2) PS2 my ass off.

3) Spread myself in front of the new TV and watching DVD.

4) Surfed the net aimlessly.

5) Sleep. Like a walrus.

Very relaxing. Exam’s a couple of weeks away, you idiot.

I just realised that I haven’t felt hunger for 4 days. Not even a TINGE of it.

Shit.

Everything seems to have dissipated into a chill and take-it-easy pace after the assignments. No, ignore the fact that exams are as close as a bone to the pelvic. Everything has settled for a vacation and lazing out under the summer sun. Slow, cheery, ignorant…

Where’s the urgency? Where’s the sense of dread of impending doom?

Heck I want urgency and I want dread. I don’t intend to laze away until Exam Day when I wake up and “Oh shit. What’re my subjects again?”

Hey, it happened. Serious.

But everything is just so… so… chilled out…

t’s hard not to go “Fuck exams! I’m playing Shadow Hearts!”

*Sigh*

Come to think of it, everything IS chilled now. I’ve not been thinking about her, nor whatever that comes with her. I’ve not worried myself with a plethora of idiocy and self-inflicted torment (no I’m not saying that I do shit like cutting myself or drilling holes to my soles. Just questions). In fact, I found myself rather more interested with a peculiar relationship this friend of mine is starting (and somehow concerned… feels like I’m watching soap dramas).

Looking forward to lunch with Rachel. I think it’s about the only time I actually asked a girl out to lunch without another friend suddenly tagging along (wow! I feel like a loser. So familiar a feeling…).

The Superman theme song is stuck in my head…

By a stroke of luck, I managed to catch Napoleon Dynamite on HBO yesterday. I have no idea of what the movie was freaking about, apart from the fact that it’s kinda hyped up by a couple of programs I glimpsed. Turns out to be an interesting watch, though not as funny as I hoped it would be.

Perhaps, in a morbid and real kind of way, I feel like Napoleon. Outcast, loser, nerd/geek/noob, impediment, etc. It feels so familiar, watching it. Guess it’s undeniable that I’m a geek.

Though it’ll be hell the day I choose to name myself Napoleon Dynamite…

Whoa, cripes, it’s 20 minutes past midnight. I guess I really should head to sleep.

Goodnight people.

Song of the day: Eleanor by Low Millions.

Currently Reading: random cookbook.

Movie of the day: Superman Returns. (despite falling somewhat short, this movie celebrated the return of a superhero icon with flair and style. 4 out of 5 stars)

Currently Playing: Shadow Hearts: From the new world

Pro Evolution Soccer 5.